Brainiac Central.

Do you ever have those days when its just 'me, myself and I'? Today is one of those days... You are out of touch with everyone in the world and all you think about is your life. When I have these days, I go deep in thought, which usually I end up thinking to myself.... Where is my life going to be in the future?

I scare myself thinking about my life, honestly. I am not sure why... I think about my friends, family, life in general, and everything in between.

What if my friends aren't true friends? What if they're just using me? Can I really trust them? And the biggest question of all to me is, are they honest with me? Friends can be so confusing. That saying "you're 2 faced", I believe applies to more people than you would think. Friends can be hurtful yet loving, deceiving yet helpful, and rude yet kind. Friends go both ways. You can never tell who's who...

My family is a whole lot of dysfuntional, haha! Every family I am sure has ups and downs... I like to belive my family is just crazy!! Is it just me, or do you find out the secrets in your family too? Mine has a ton, but being the spy in my famly(as the youngest lol), I tend to find out more stuff day by day. Sometimes it is very scary. So the big qustion about my family is, Why are they hiding things from us? Family's are meant ot be open with eachother, and yet it seems like most family's have more secrets than I can count... Another question for my family, is Do they actually love me for me? Some people know I'm pretty outgoing. I feel as if some of my family doesn't understand me...

I wonder if there is anyone I know that has thought about me that they are afraid of sharing because of what they're peers will think. And that's the problem in this world. Everyone is so afraid to be judged by others that they change themselves to fit in. I think that is what's so different about me. I'm not afraid to show who I am, and maybe that is what drives people from me.

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